alas.

So I was going to do a myspace survey, but then i realised that they all ask the same questions, and anybody who cares enough to read it, already knows my answers. So, i've decided to waste my time on something more productive. Writing in my diary, that nobody else can read, except for of course anybody with the internet and the patience.

So I was getting attatched to this boy that I call jenny, which if anybody from work reads this, they'll know exactly who i mean but i don't really care anymore. but jenny is 17 and going off to college. I'm kinda sad about both of those things, I mean he's jailbait, and i don't get to see him anymore? How fair is that? He says i'll see him again, but things never turn out that way.

I guess the thing is, i'm starting to think that maybe this perpetually single thing isn't working out for me. All my friends have somebody, so when we hang out, i'm always the odd girl out. Finding a guy who comes close to being worthy of me, and is in the slightest bit interested, is harder than it seems. I mean, honestly, why is it always the ugly ones that are ballsy enough to say things to me? And when there's somebody that I'm comfortable with, and vise versa, they always leave. Whether temporary or long term, it's always long enough to make things awkward when i see them again.

damn. I quit.

and it starts...

I'm sitting here waiting for it to be time for me to leave for my summer class. I don't not want to go, but I'm not exactly excited either.

It's pscychology 100, so maybe it will make me a better blogger! lol. that would be great, just interpret what's wrong with everybody and post it online.... hmm maybe I should do that. well I don't know.

I really don't have anything to say, but I didn't have anything else to do.

peace

Ugh... and then some

Have you ever noticed how people show up at the most inopportune times for your mental well being? For example, that one person that you want to shove off of a cliff would more than likely be the same person who would call you to talk about a deadline for work on the day that you crashed your car. Or If you just got an amazing offer to go live in Scotland for a year with a pipe band full of well built kilties and your best friend decided that she had to be the attention whore and like O.D. on Vicodin and Clorox bleach and live to tell about it, thus creating a situation where you were unable to live with said kilties...

Well I have the same problem... sort of. There are a few guys in my life that could control me without even trying. My weaknesses that I don't like to point out. There are three to be exact. Four if you count Prince Harry, but as we have never actually met or contacted each other to begin with, he cannot be blamed for his blatent sex appeal. You see, these three guys I can eventually forget. It takes me a painfully long time, but in the end I do tend to be able to forget them after about 3 months of the last time I saw them. But then they always tend to show up just as I had forgotten about them. It's simple really. This week alone I recieved an IM from one, and saw another walking in the mall past my store. And a little while before, about two weeks ago, I found out that the other one broke up with his girlfriend.

It's a cruel trick of fate that my attention span is directly proportional to their ability to show up. It messes with my mind and I think I could pretty much just go insane at this moment. Maybe I should just jump one of them and get it over with. If only...

On that note, I leave you with this...
"It's not rape if you yell surprise!"

I Kissed A Girl

Because I have Katy Perry stuck in my head, I thought that I would do a blog on the girls that I would kiss. No Homo Though.


ScarJo Because she's just gorgeous! Totally my appearance role-model.


Ashley Tisdale. She's the ony reason that I sit through HSM. She's just fun and bubbley.

Hmm well, that's about it. I have high standards. Paris Hilton comes in close, but not quite. I would only kiss her in hopes that she'd pay me for it. And that I'd be kissing somebody who kissed Benji Madden (Paris is a lucky bitch!)

oh and off subject, i got a baby bunny! Her name is MollyWobbles. and she's the cutest thing on earth. I bought her from the farmer's market on tuesday. She likes me, but I think that Pumpkin is being mean to her.

over and out

sadness :(

so my bunny Louis is dieing and I'm sad. Not that anybody is really going to read this but who knows, it may help. He's partially paralyzed, and in a sort of coma now. its really hard to just sit and wait. I've been praying for him to just die instead of having to lay there like a vegetable. I can't really fathom how somebody that was just so full of life an energy can deteriorate so quickly. It breaks my heart because he was still trying to run around like he used to but he couldn't even stay up. Now he's got no life in his eyes, but he's still holding on. I wish I knew what he was waiting for. I think Colleen needs to come and get him. She was his mate and friend, she died this past august. but anyway, I'm heart-broken.

Here's a picture of my King Louis-Pierre.

Renfaire etc.

It's been quite a while since i blogged, so here goes!
I had my first renfaire practice. twas lots of fun.
My character is Martha Poole, washer wench. I'm going to have a lot of fun with her. She's supposed to be worldly, reliable, and vain... well i dunno about the worldly part, but the rest seems pretty type cast to me! not that that's a problem!

now i think it's time for another list...
since i already showed love to the older guys, i think it's time we give some love to the guys under 40. I've narrowed it down to 4. oy very hard

1. Prince Harry

he's a red head with pink cheeks... thats all i ask really, but he goes a step further by being a prince.

Harry, will you marry me? No really!
2. Dominic Monaghan

blonde hair, blue eyes, just yummy
3. Eric Szmanda

he's got the whole blonde and adorable thing going on
4. Rider Strong

haha i just like him bloody! ever since BMW i've wanted him... not gonna change


ok, so now that i think about it, it wasn't that hard. these are the sexiest guys in just about ever.

mer

It's a beautiful day, what are you doing sitting in front of the computer? Go outside and play. I'm about to go outside and read. I have to get my rabbit Louis (pronounced the propper french way) out so he can run around, and hopefully, it will make his leg feel better. I dunno what's wrong with it. He just got over snuffles, and now he can hardly walk.

I'm listening to Beecake right now, I'm sorry, it's a great song <3.

I'm going to mazard for a bit and go outside.
(I know you have no idea what to mazard is! thats the idea. You can even do research and not figure it out, although if you're smart and know me, after a while you'll know what i'm doing lol)