alas.

So I was going to do a myspace survey, but then i realised that they all ask the same questions, and anybody who cares enough to read it, already knows my answers. So, i've decided to waste my time on something more productive. Writing in my diary, that nobody else can read, except for of course anybody with the internet and the patience.

So I was getting attatched to this boy that I call jenny, which if anybody from work reads this, they'll know exactly who i mean but i don't really care anymore. but jenny is 17 and going off to college. I'm kinda sad about both of those things, I mean he's jailbait, and i don't get to see him anymore? How fair is that? He says i'll see him again, but things never turn out that way.

I guess the thing is, i'm starting to think that maybe this perpetually single thing isn't working out for me. All my friends have somebody, so when we hang out, i'm always the odd girl out. Finding a guy who comes close to being worthy of me, and is in the slightest bit interested, is harder than it seems. I mean, honestly, why is it always the ugly ones that are ballsy enough to say things to me? And when there's somebody that I'm comfortable with, and vise versa, they always leave. Whether temporary or long term, it's always long enough to make things awkward when i see them again.

damn. I quit.

and it starts...

I'm sitting here waiting for it to be time for me to leave for my summer class. I don't not want to go, but I'm not exactly excited either.

It's pscychology 100, so maybe it will make me a better blogger! lol. that would be great, just interpret what's wrong with everybody and post it online.... hmm maybe I should do that. well I don't know.

I really don't have anything to say, but I didn't have anything else to do.

peace

Ugh... and then some

Have you ever noticed how people show up at the most inopportune times for your mental well being? For example, that one person that you want to shove off of a cliff would more than likely be the same person who would call you to talk about a deadline for work on the day that you crashed your car. Or If you just got an amazing offer to go live in Scotland for a year with a pipe band full of well built kilties and your best friend decided that she had to be the attention whore and like O.D. on Vicodin and Clorox bleach and live to tell about it, thus creating a situation where you were unable to live with said kilties...

Well I have the same problem... sort of. There are a few guys in my life that could control me without even trying. My weaknesses that I don't like to point out. There are three to be exact. Four if you count Prince Harry, but as we have never actually met or contacted each other to begin with, he cannot be blamed for his blatent sex appeal. You see, these three guys I can eventually forget. It takes me a painfully long time, but in the end I do tend to be able to forget them after about 3 months of the last time I saw them. But then they always tend to show up just as I had forgotten about them. It's simple really. This week alone I recieved an IM from one, and saw another walking in the mall past my store. And a little while before, about two weeks ago, I found out that the other one broke up with his girlfriend.

It's a cruel trick of fate that my attention span is directly proportional to their ability to show up. It messes with my mind and I think I could pretty much just go insane at this moment. Maybe I should just jump one of them and get it over with. If only...

On that note, I leave you with this...
"It's not rape if you yell surprise!"

I Kissed A Girl

Because I have Katy Perry stuck in my head, I thought that I would do a blog on the girls that I would kiss. No Homo Though.


ScarJo Because she's just gorgeous! Totally my appearance role-model.


Ashley Tisdale. She's the ony reason that I sit through HSM. She's just fun and bubbley.

Hmm well, that's about it. I have high standards. Paris Hilton comes in close, but not quite. I would only kiss her in hopes that she'd pay me for it. And that I'd be kissing somebody who kissed Benji Madden (Paris is a lucky bitch!)

oh and off subject, i got a baby bunny! Her name is MollyWobbles. and she's the cutest thing on earth. I bought her from the farmer's market on tuesday. She likes me, but I think that Pumpkin is being mean to her.

over and out

sadness :(

so my bunny Louis is dieing and I'm sad. Not that anybody is really going to read this but who knows, it may help. He's partially paralyzed, and in a sort of coma now. its really hard to just sit and wait. I've been praying for him to just die instead of having to lay there like a vegetable. I can't really fathom how somebody that was just so full of life an energy can deteriorate so quickly. It breaks my heart because he was still trying to run around like he used to but he couldn't even stay up. Now he's got no life in his eyes, but he's still holding on. I wish I knew what he was waiting for. I think Colleen needs to come and get him. She was his mate and friend, she died this past august. but anyway, I'm heart-broken.

Here's a picture of my King Louis-Pierre.

Renfaire etc.

It's been quite a while since i blogged, so here goes!
I had my first renfaire practice. twas lots of fun.
My character is Martha Poole, washer wench. I'm going to have a lot of fun with her. She's supposed to be worldly, reliable, and vain... well i dunno about the worldly part, but the rest seems pretty type cast to me! not that that's a problem!

now i think it's time for another list...
since i already showed love to the older guys, i think it's time we give some love to the guys under 40. I've narrowed it down to 4. oy very hard

1. Prince Harry

he's a red head with pink cheeks... thats all i ask really, but he goes a step further by being a prince.

Harry, will you marry me? No really!
2. Dominic Monaghan

blonde hair, blue eyes, just yummy
3. Eric Szmanda

he's got the whole blonde and adorable thing going on
4. Rider Strong

haha i just like him bloody! ever since BMW i've wanted him... not gonna change


ok, so now that i think about it, it wasn't that hard. these are the sexiest guys in just about ever.

mer

It's a beautiful day, what are you doing sitting in front of the computer? Go outside and play. I'm about to go outside and read. I have to get my rabbit Louis (pronounced the propper french way) out so he can run around, and hopefully, it will make his leg feel better. I dunno what's wrong with it. He just got over snuffles, and now he can hardly walk.

I'm listening to Beecake right now, I'm sorry, it's a great song <3.

I'm going to mazard for a bit and go outside.
(I know you have no idea what to mazard is! thats the idea. You can even do research and not figure it out, although if you're smart and know me, after a while you'll know what i'm doing lol)

Procrastination

I'm once again NOT reading weep not, child. I really really don't want to do it. So I'm sitting here on my bed in the dark typing. I suppose I could start doing research for the book I'm writing. Its basically a guide to how young women should portray themselves, and how they should be educated etc. because parents aren't doing their jobs anymore, so somebody has to try to get people to shape up.

I feel like dyeing my hair bleach blonde, like Gwen Stefani and Scarlett Johansson. I'm afraid I'd look like a skank though. hmm better not do it!

BorEd yo...

Ok, I really don't have anything to say, but here I go anyway!

I'm sitting here in the hallway waiting for my class to start in like 20 minutes. I'm supposed to be reading Weep not, child, but it's boring and I finished the first chapter, so I think I deserve my computer time!

I have a hobbit in the cellphone compartment of my purse. Merry to be exact. I dunno why, he just wanted to come to school today. Poor kid didn't know what he was getting into.

Does Anybody Else Find This Disturbingly Sexy?

this video makes me squee my pants like the little fangirl that I am.
oh baby baby!
teehee

Back up and running

So I'm feeling a lot better today, but I'm soooooooooooo tired. I'm in my wellness class and I could just fall asleep. I mean its not like learning the "major functions of essential body fat" is interesting in the first place but geez! My body hurts so badly from coughing. honestly i have no idea what i'm typing right now, so if it starts to not make sense i'm sorry. but *yawns* sleepy. I'm dizzy and such too. I get to eat in about 30 minutes though, so hopefully that helps. My tylenol has about an hour until it expires and i have to take more. yeah, i've got nothing to say. i'm just going to stop now.... hehe stop! I'd like to!

I hate sickness... but on another note

So its almost 1:00 am and I cannot sleep still because of a runny/stuffy nose and coughing. I really want to go to school and work tomorrow, but damnit if this doesn't end I may just infect everyone I come in contact with, causing everyone to get sick, then by six degrees of separation, I would infect the entire human populous, thus causing the end of the world...maybe I should just stay in bed.

so while I was laying here attempting to smell the food that I can hear my mother eating, I was thinking... Ya know some guys are just hot, no matter how old they are!... people say I go for old guys, but that's not true. I go for looks, personality, and just plain sexiness. I can't help it if the ones I find that meet the criteria are considerably older than me! Maybe the men (if you can call them that) of my generation just need to step it up a bit. Hey I'm just saying!

So here is my list, complete with pictures if I can figure it out, of famous guys who just seem to stay fantastic, despite age. And no matter how old they are, If I met them, I'd more than likely do them (or at least figuratively) The only rule for this list is they have to be 40+

Billy Idol~ age: 52

Despite the fact that me made a christmas album, I still love him. Sexy voice + bleach blonde hair= this girl melts

Matthew Broderick~ age: 46

He's a cute kind of sexy. I still see Ferris when I look at him, and that makes me feel all squishy inside.

Billy Boyd~ age: 39

Yes, I'm slightly breaking my own rules, but my favorite hobbit will be 40 this year so he's going on my list dang it!

Johnny Depp~ age: 44

Have you ever heard of sirens? the creatures that with the sound of their voice can basically hypnotize all men? Ya know make them fall in love with them? Well I'm pretty sure that's what Johnny Depp does to women. There's really no explaining it. It just is.

well there's my first blog post of the day i suppose! I think I'm going to become adicted to this, whether anybody reads it or not. It sure beats writing in a diary!

ugh well I'm out for now
If you see Prince Harry tell him I love him
Peace love and chemistry dude
Shaunna

Hamlet in Four Minutes

For all of you who are having trouble with Hamlet (the original emo kid) check this out.... it made me smile

My First Post... Yayness I suppose

So I'm sitting at home sick and desided that I should get myself one of these blog thingers. Done! Now I suppose if people are actually going to be reading this I should tell you a little bit about myself. *ahem* here goes

I think I'll start off with one of those corny about me polls that people post as bulletins on myspace. I promise that this will be the only one I put on here. If I ever break that promise... well I'm a woman it's my poragative to change my mind. *starts singing britney spears my poragative*

1. What is Your Name? Shaunna
2. How old are you? 19
3. What is the link to your website, blog, or myspace? http://www.myspace.com/banpaiashinu
General
4. What is your height? 5'4"
5. Do you have any siblings? only
6. What is your eye colour? blue
7. What is your hair colour? depends but right now its an ugly brownish colour
8. Do you wear glasses or contacts? I should wear glasses
9. Are you right handed or left handed? righty
10. Do you have any piercings? my ears
11. Do you smoke? no
12. Do you swear? yes
13. Do you get along with your parents? yes
14. Your heritage I'm a mutt, but I choose to embrace my scottishness
15. Your fears I fear losing my family
16. Goal you would like to achieve this year I have none
17. Most overused phrase on an instant messenger rofl
18. Best Physical Feature eyes
19. Your bedtime around 10:00
20. What time do you arise in the morning? it depends, between 7:30 and 8:30
21. First thoughts waking up? damnit!
22. Do you shower daily? Yes every morining.
This Or That?
23. Bright or dark room? bright
24. Chocolate or vanilla? vanilla
25. Dogs of cats? cats
26. Pepsi or Coke? coke
27. McDonalds or Burger King? McDonald's for double cheeseburger plain, and then swing by the BK Lounge for some French Fries
28. Ant or Dec? I have no idea what this question means. but I like bugs, so I'm going to have to go with ant.
29. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea? neither. Turkey Hill baby! Spoken like a true Pennsylvanian
30. Cappuccino or Coffee? Neither, Hot Chocolate is nice though.
In the last month have you...
31. Drank alcohol? yes (fruity BAP)
32. Gone to a mall? yes, i work there.
33. Eaten a box of Oreos? eww no they are the most vile things that humans pre-package
34. Eaten sushi? no
35. Been on stage? No actually, thats surprising, but that whorable absense of performing will soon be overwith
36. Been dumped? no
37. Gone skinny dipping? no 3
8. Stolen Anything? not really
Have you ever...
39. Laughed for no reason? no, there's always a reason. Its just most of the time people don't know what my reason is.
40. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do? nope
41. Been in love? no
42. Fired a gun? no
43. Been drunk? no
44. Been called a Tease? More than Likely... its not that I try, I guess it's just my nature
45. Been beaten up? no
46. Shoplifted? no
What was the last....
47. Furry thing you touched? Louis my bunny. I really like this question btw.
48. Thing you've said? I'm going up to bed.
49. Song you've listened to? Broken Hearts Parade by GC is stuck in my head right now. But I think the last song I heard was Anne Murray singing Amazing Grace
50. (Who was the last) person you've spoken to on the phone? wow umm... I think my dad.
51. Movie you watched? LOTR! heck yes
52. Thing you were doing before this? deleting a bunch of old emails
53. Time you cried? last night
54. Song you've sang? Probably something by Steve Sinnicks... He's been in my car for about a month now. (not litterally, just his cd)
55. Time you looked at the clock? holy crap its 2:35 already?
56. Food and drink you've had? Sierra Mist sitting right next to me.
57. Flavour of gum you've chewed? Jolt.
58. Shoes you've worn? I call them my sheep shoes, because if I were to ever own a herd of sheep, they are the shoes I would wear to shepherd them.
59. Store you've been in? Hot Topic. Thats sad considdering I work there!
Favourite...
60. Planet? FlooPhlatz
61. Age you've been so far? 9
62. Season? Autumn
63. Number? 127
64. TV show? CSI or LOST
65. Flower? Lilly
Random...
66. How much cash do you have on you? none
67. What's a word that rhymes with 'door'? floor
68. What T-Shirt are you wearing? none, I'm in a turn of the century style nighty.
69. What brand of shoes are you wearing? none, but I'm wearing these really sweet knitted knee high socks.
70. What did your last text message say? mer
71. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping
72. What's your current desktop picture? Spice Girls
73. What's a word that you say a lot? probably "I" people don't realise it, but your life revolves around you no matter what you do.
74. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? tickle me pink
75. How is the weather right now? kinda bleh.
76. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Nothing in particular. They just sorta have to have an aura about them
77. Are you too shy to ask someone out? yes
78. Can you do a headstand (not using a wall)? no, but that would be flippin sweet
79. Who would you like to see right now? a lot of people
80. How many pillows do you sleep with? two, but there are 7 on my bed
81. Would you go on a date with someone on MySpace? no, I'm not in the mood to be raped any time soon
82. How do you want to die? dramatically, so I'm remembered for at least a week. I'm thinking a hired assassin.
83. What do you want to be when you grow up? une actrice
84. What country would you most like to visit? Scotland
85. How many CDs do you own? last count was 187
86. How many things, in your past, do you regret? I regret nothing. VIVE LE RESISTANCE!
87. Do you think you are attractive? currently? no. generally? yes
88. Do you believe in yourself? I'm here aren't I? I sure hope I'm not a figment of my own imagination. but that just leads to too many psychology type questions.
89. Do you want to get married? yes in a couple of years.
In a boy/girl...
90. Favourite eye colour? Blue
91. Favourite hair colour? Red or Blonde
92. Short or long hair? medium
93. Height? taller than me
94. Weight? Idk it varies, i don't really care

Ok, now that we've been through that, I feel like you didn't learn anythig about me! So let me try to summarise myself.
I'm an American who wants to be a Canadian, who's obessed with all things Scottish, to quote Mike Myers, "if its no scottish its crap!"... My Favourite animal is an alpaca, my favourite band is the Tartan Terrors. My favourite colour is pink. When I'm not working at Hot Topic, I'm going to Rennaissance Faires and Fairie Festivals. I love costumes, and acting, and singing. I collect stuffies and baby dolls. My role models are Anne Boleyn and Twiggy. I want to be queen of the world someday, and am gathering a following. if you'd like to join email me at canadianllamaluv@aol.com

I think that pretty much does it.
Peace Love and Chemistry Dudes
Shaunna